Wednesday, August 08, 2007

Where will i be when i leave this world? Will anyone take notice that i am no longer breathing in this world? Will i still feel my own presence and feel my love ones..All these questions always appear in my mind when i let myself sink into deep thoughts..

I have never really experience any life and death situation or really say goodbye to my close ones. In fact, i fear these situations because it hurts and i am totally clueless what knid of medcine can stop the pain of saying goodbye to someone forever. Many people leave this world with music still in them because before they knew, time just runs out. No signs, no warning, no words. They just left. The earth continue to turn, everybody continue to move on, No one seems to take notice that someone who was still alive maybe hours ago is no longer going to be heard, feel and seen. Sometimes, i always ask myself will someone even realise if i just go missing..will someone try to finds me?

When is my turn to leave? Will i have a chance to say goodbye to my friends and loved ones? Will they have the time to tell me that they will miss me and although i am gone, i continue to live in their hearts...If i have the time, how much time will i have?
When is my turn to leave, I hope to leave peacefully. I want to be able to watch my love ones and friends. I want to fly. I want to have magical powers. Lolx..Will we really have more powers when we die..i guess no one will ever know because no one can ever come back to tell the rest..It is like a secret that will never be reveal..I am so curious..lolx

I once read a book, it says that we should always say goodbye to our love ones and friends in a manner as though it will be the last time you are seeing them. I think what the author says really make sense because we never know when is our last Goodbye. Life is unpredictable and fragile. There is no why..when it is time, we just have to leave. When i was born, i am crying but all my loved one is smiling. I hope when my friends and loved ones send me away, i can leave this world smiling and they are smiling with me, If you ask me what i want to be when i died..I want to be the wind because although no one can see me, they can still feel me. Somehow Nobody can be really gone.

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flying towards my dreams
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. Vanessa . 18 yrs old .
. loves to walk..why? problem of car sickness..lol . D.O.B05/10/89.
. slacker. chubbby..lol ..

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